Thursday, August 5

One of those days

My Heart Is Filled With Thankfulness

My heart is filled with thankfulness
To Him who bore my pain
Who plumbed the depths of my disgrace
And gave me life again
Who crushed my curse of sinfulness
And clothed me with His light
And wrote His law of righteousness
With pow’r upon my heart

My heart is filled with thankfulness
To Him who walks beside
Who floods my weaknesses with strength
And causes fears to fly
Whose every promise is enough
For every step I take
Sustaining me with arms of love
And crowning me with grace

My heart is filled with thankfulness
To Him who reigns above
Whose wisdom is my perfect peace
Whose every thought is love
For every day I have on earth
Is given by the King
So I will give my life my all
To love and follow Him

by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend
© 2003 Thankyou Music
(Admin. by EMI Christian Music Publishing)

 I know we all have days where you wonder what *else* you can possibly break. :-P The other day (just as I finished the previous post, actually!) I knocked my poor already dying computer off the bed. The smashed cord is now beyond repair and so my computer is now just collecting dust (the battery died last month  - I'm using Dwight's computer right now). Then when I was putting away the dishes, one of my favorite glasses smashed on the floor. I was frustrated at myself but didn't cry until I couldn't get the door open (to get to the broom and vacuum) because glass was wedged underneath. THAT is when I lost it. I bawled like a baby and then the true baby decided to join in with me. We were a mess. And the kitchen didn't look at that great either. ;-)

I definitely wasn't having a grateful heart focus on God, but rather on stuff and how it wasn't going the way I'd like. Instead if being grateful in all things I was choosing to not abide in the grace that was there for me all along. What a sad way to live, even if just for a moment! God has  done so much for us:

*Even with over 100 people at work getting laid off on Monday, Dwight still has his job. 
*That Sprout is growing strong and is healthy - I love feeling the kicks and Dwight can feel them now at times too!
*A great church and wonderful friends there. We're so glad that George's heart attack didn't happen until he was back in the States after being in Papua New Guinea for over a month (He served there as a missionary and has been translating the Bible into their language. He and his wife went back to deliver the first copy to them!) and that he is doing well now.
*That Chloe and I felt great for our lil' trip away. Right after writing the post about that (Yikes, things happen after I write posts) we had apple juice for a snack. Unopened bottle but we still got sick. I had painful cramps and all that and she was throwing up. Not fun. I'm glad it didn't last long! (Though Chloe managed to call her daddy at work while he was in the middle of a meeting without me knowing because I was too busy lying on the floor moaning to take notice. Oops.)
*Provided pretty blackout curtains that have Chloe finally taking naps (after about 9 months!) and sleeping better at night. Cheapest ones at Wal-mart people. And they are wonderful!
*Provided a  regular sized trash can. Yes, after 1.5 years of marriage we finally got one. I'm loving it! Little things in life make me happy. :-)
*A loving and wise husband. He (and his lil' helper girlie) made me the prettiest cake for my birthday last week. And he surprised me by coming home early and with a rose. And he encouraged me to get the shampoo that I wasn't buying since we married even though the others gave me bad hives and blisters - I was blown away when he suggested it, I thought he was the sweetest thing ever that he thought of it, and even knew the exact kind!
*Provided pretty coral pink toenail polish. Call me shallow - but pretty toes make me quite giddy. ;-)
* Provided everything that we need for Sproutsie whether baby is a he or a she. ;-) And that Hannah (Dwight's sister) doesn't mind coming out to stay with us for 6 weeks around the due date. I didn't know where Chloe would go when I was in labor and it is so nice to not have to even think about it now! 
*Provided lots of yummy cream cheese! (and great sales on summertime fruit - I loaded up!)
*I needed ziplock bags to freeze some of the fruit I had bought, but didn't have any. What did Dwight find in the mailbox? A box of cleaning supplies and quart-sized ziplock bags, just when I most needed them! God knew!
*Provided our beautiful apartment. I love our home (after all, it is where we honeymooned and brought Chloe home... I'm going to cry when it comes time to move!), and it seems so open now that we moved our bed out to the living room  so that there will be space for Hannah and Sprout when Dec. comes. (We weren't sleeping in the bedroom anyways since Chloe slept better if I wasn't in the same room. She is a smart cookie.) God is so wonderful to provide just what we need! 

more to be added later...

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